"I Just Don't Know What to Do With Myself"

Do you know that song? The only reason I know it is from the movie My Best Friend's Wedding.

Anyway, that's where I'm at today. My mom has been asking for a while for Jonathan to come stay with her a couple of days. So yesterday, she & Dad came by for a visit... and took Jonathan home with them.

They left around 4:30 or so, and for the rest of the evening I felt restless; like I should be doing something, or chasing someone. It was really weird being her without that little redheaded boy. But it was also nice being here, just Chris and I. We didn't really do anything for Valentine's Day, so we grilled a steak (yum!) and Chris had mushrooms & onions,, which he loves.

I went through a few "phases" last night: 1) Restless, as I said above. 2) Exhausted. The idea of an entire night's sleep without interruptions made me so tired. And 3) Missing him like crazy. I was trying to get to sleep last night & I was lying there thinking about Jonathan & how much I missed him. I've been re-reading one of my favorite books, "Pretense", and the part I'm at now is very heart wrenching. I won't tell what it is, in case anyone decides to read it, but it affected me like never before & left me feeling very grateful for my family & friends.

Anyway... I have the whole day to myself! I've been at a loss as to what to do, it's been so long since I've had a day with no plans. I did call & make plans to have lunch with a former coworker today. She's about to become a grandmother for the first time so I wanted to take her a little gift. I made her a picture frame Saturday; I need to take a picture & post it. After lunch I'm not entirely sure what I'll do. I may run to Babies-R-Us & pick up a couple of things. I also have a few other errands to run, so that may be what I end up doing. Nothing too exciting.

I'm really looking forward to tonight though. My mom's group is having a Mom's Night Out at Johnny's Pizza. It's trivia night there, so it should be a lot of fun.

Well, I think I'll sign off now. Enjoy your day! I know I will. ;o)