Friday, September 12, 2008

I'm doing it again

Several months ago I posted about how for some reason on this weight loss journey I tend to sabotage myself. I seem to be in that same boat again. A couple of weeks ago I hit a big milestone at Weight Watchers, 51 pounds! Ever since then I've been completely off track and I don't quite know what to do about it. I can't let myself get so far off track that I can get back on, so I need some real accountabilty. Daily accountability. I need someone I can call up in the evening when I'm on the verge of grabbing the bag of (insert snack food) and eating until I'm feeling both full and guilty. Even as I sit & eat unneccesarily I'm aware that I'm sabotaging myself, but I can't seem to stop. What am I getting out of it? Are untold amounts of Baked Cheetos worth how awful I feel afterwards? Definitely not. So why can't I stop myself? I really need to do some soul searching and try to determine why I do this to myself. I know I can reach my goal if I just keep on keepin' on, but it's hard to not get discouraged when you feel like you're failing.

Dr. Phil has a new segment this season, The Ultimate Weight Loss Race. Think Biggest Loser meets The Amazing Race. His main trainer said something that I found very profound: "Everyone is looking for a magic bullet. Commitment is the magic bullet." I've been really thinking about that for the last couple of days. I am committed to this weight loss journey, so I just have to get my head back on straight.

This turned out to be quite the rambling post, sorry about that. I guess I just needed to get my thoughts out there. Thanks for "listening". Any thoughts, suggestions, advice you have I would love to hear.


laurel said...

Like your new header!

Is it pms time? Those hormones can get in the way everytime. I think that for some reason our emotions rebel and feel overwhelmed with periods of denial which diets ultimately are. I've yet to find the answer myself to overcoming the emotional need for food. Some things I've read said it's important to have small rewards which you may already have been doing. Baked Cheetos can be so addictive. Maybe make little baggies up with legal amounts and use them as a reward. Might make it so large portions of the bag don't suddenly disappear.

You will get past this spell and back on track.

laurel said...

Hey girl, I've given you an award. Go to my blog to collect it.

One day at a time said...

So why arent you calling me instead of snacking? Really by the time I can get done with my rambling on and on, you wont feel like eating. Hey are you interested in meeting one night to go walking. I wouldnt mind making it a weekly thing (without kids!) Let me know!

One day at a time said...

Call me instead of snacking! And I am usually free to go walking at night without kids, so any night you hav ethemunchies let know and we can walk instead!

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