Several months ago I posted about how for some reason on this weight loss journey I tend to sabotage myself. I seem to be in that same boat again. A couple of weeks ago I hit a big milestone at Weight Watchers, 51 pounds! Ever since then I've been completely off track and I don't quite know what to do about it. I can't let myself get so far off track that I can get back on, so I need some real accountabilty. Daily accountability. I need someone I can call up in the evening when I'm on the verge of grabbing the bag of (insert snack food) and eating until I'm feeling both full and guilty. Even as I sit & eat unneccesarily I'm aware that I'm sabotaging myself, but I can't seem to stop. What am I getting out of it? Are untold amounts of Baked Cheetos worth how awful I feel afterwards? Definitely not. So why can't I stop myself? I really need to do some soul searching and try to determine why I do this to myself. I know I can reach my goal if I just keep on keepin' on, but it's hard to not get discouraged when you feel like you're failing.
Dr. Phil has a new segment this season, The Ultimate Weight Loss Race. Think Biggest Loser meets The Amazing Race. His main trainer said something that I found very profound: "Everyone is looking for a magic bullet. Commitment is the magic bullet." I've been really thinking about that for the last couple of days. I am committed to this weight loss journey, so I just have to get my head back on straight.
This turned out to be quite the rambling post, sorry about that. I guess I just needed to get my thoughts out there. Thanks for "listening". Any thoughts, suggestions, advice you have I would love to hear.